I think im going crazy becos of my pimple scars

(I cant afford to go to a dermatologist and my dad doesnt allow me to)omg I cant take it anymore…I know my dad is trying to help and all..but every single day he keeps telling me..”dont pop your pimples” then he’ll look at my face and repeat himself “dont poop your pimples”..I dont much pimples anymore just 1 or 2 its just the scars..and then he’ll force me to eat tonnes of fruits and my stomach is like already bloated from eating too much…and then if I say im full..then he’ll remind me of my pimples again “eat more fruits!your pimples will go away more faster” and im like..thinking to myself..omg ok ok ok! I know I know I’ve been researching and I ate too much fruits already I feel im gonna puke..and if he were to comment on my scars again saying its pimples..and if I were to reply him then he’ll think im going against him…like last time when I cracked and said “its none of your business” then he got so mad and he forever brought up that topic nvr letting go…I cant take it anymore..its been almost 4 months now and this scar I’ve been focusing on isnt even going away..I think im losing my mind…I know my face is already horrible and I know everyone knows it! but yet everyday infront of my family he wud go..”dont pop your pimples” when I dont even pop it I just let it go away..and then he says “if you pop your pimples next time when you grow up your face will be like a well and when you wash your face in the morning night time it still wont dry” I get so damn annoyed..I know my face is bad..he knows my face is bad..my whole family knows my face is bad..yet why do you have to embarrass me every day commenting about my face..he just commented on it like 5 mins ago!! I cant take it..I really cant..