What if I feel torn up by my friends?

Sometimes I feel so torn up by my friends. =( Her name is Helen, shes a new friend I made this year { my first year in jr high } She can be so nice sometimes, but at times she would criticize me, like I would come to school later than her, she would be like “ About time Jen..” and give me this look. If I take the later bus and not the earlier bus that she takes. She would give me this look that makes you say sorry. Because I live in a house with 3 levels, she says I’m rich. that I’m a richie, a spoilt brat. This hurt me so much, all I’ve been was nice throughout the whole month. I don’t understand. Just today my friend asked Helen if she had locker shelves. She looked at me and said “No… I’m not rich and spoiled like some people.” I know that was directed at me because I have some of my brothers old locker shelves. At lunch, I pack all my stuff in my locker and turn around to find I’m by myself for lunch again. The bad part is… when my old friends see me with Helen talking, they would walk past me and narrow their eyes saying “JEN’S ABANDONING US!” All I wanted to do was make a friend thats in my classes. I feel so torn between them all. At one point shes so nice to me. At another she would criticize me and make me feel so bad. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I’m all alone in the world with nobody that likes me.I don’t even what can I do at this point. Some day I plan on telling her exactly what I feel but then suddenly she acts so nice I feel like I’m such a lucky girl to have a friend like her. But still, I don’t know what words I will recieve from Helen tomorrow. I have tried phoning my best friend(she goes to another school) but she didn’t seem like she was listening to what I was saying, Nothing makes me feel better, all I think I can do is ignore it and just smile and leave the problems for when I am alone. I’m starting to hate going to school so bad. I want this all to be a dream. I feel like I’m so alone, nobody would be there for me when I have troubles. Thanks for reading everything. sorry if I sound whiny

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 Clutz