I feel like I want to end it all...

heya hun honestly I know at the moment it might feel as tho all the people are bad in the world and the things the people say to you shows you that the people around you at the moment are very sad and probs lonly people themselves to cause so much pain to another shows that they have no self respect for ani1 or anithin…there are actually gd people in the world you just have 2 find them xoxo

Well, I don’t believe in God, but if he does exist then I doubt he’d ever want to see any of his children suffer - perhaps that’s why all your attempts have been unsuccessful so far.

It sounds like all your problems are an extension of the hateful way in which your father treats you. Unfortunately, you can’t change the way he is, but you can change the way you react to it. You are better than what he tells you…as a matter of fact, just from your post (and lack of spelling errors) I find you highly intelligent…and that’s saying more than many people walking this earth.

Don’t let your father’s misery ruin your life…soon, you’ll be at an age where you can walk away and not have to put up with him anymore - you’ll be able to live your life the way you want to…don’t let him take your future from you…it’s much brighter than it appears from a distance.

you need to tell someone about your father, this is verbal abuse.