I dont know what to do

you know everyone in here can say “It’ll get better” and Life goes on and Don’t worry it’s ok. but it’s not. I get the feeling of not wanting to wake up. life sucks. people are mean and stupid. emotions can be rough. especially when you have verbally abusive people in your life. your mom is just being a mom. she nags and criticizes and berates you. and then tells you she loves you. or, maybe she doesn’t. what I think you should find is someone to want you for you.

Anyway, I think the best thing that I can tell you is life is not easy. we have a society that places a lot of opinion and judgement on how pretty a person is. but thats not how society should be. but it is. I was never the best looking guy or the “hot guy” I would always get jealous of my friends dating. but, you know what? life goes on. I found people who are in my life that love me for me. some say (woman) I look good others think im hideous. whatever. I could give a shite less. you know why? because people’s opinion of me that I don’t know doesn’t bother me or affect me in anyway.

maybe you should try getting involved into new things like a club or something that interests you but not so much your friend. but try not to let people get to you so much. I know that it’s hard but not everything is your fault. you really didnt do everything your getting blamed for. I hated my life so much I ,moved away from everything and pretty much everyone I know. started over. yay.