I don't think I can cope.

I’m sorry if I seem really whiny or emotional or something like that, but I’m really struggling to cope with things at the minute.

My ex boyf. makes comments about me only thinking I’m fat so others will say I’m not, and it sounds stupid but it hurts so much, because although I know its stupid, I thought he loved me. I thought he knew how I felt.

On the note of him, I still hurt so much inside after he finished me. I love him. I know I do. Despite it being 10 months since we finished, and I’ve not had a proper conversation with him since. I miss him.

I feel so fat all the time, I’m terrified of gaining weight and I’m miserable looking like me. People are commenting on how skinny I’m getting, but I can’t stop myself. I can’t stop something telling me that I NEED to be thinner. I compare myself to other people. Not just friends, but people I don’t even know. I’ll see someone with lovely skinny legs and I think ‘I wish I looked like that’

I’m disgustingly ugly, and when I’m with my friends, who are all stunning, I feel like the ugly duckling. They have so much more potential than me and I hate being so disgusting looking.

I feel as if the world is weighing my down and I really don’t know what to do. I just want to be beautiful and normal. I don’t want to seem ungreatful, because I’ve had quite a good upbringing, but those things above are ruining my life. Life would be fine if it werent for that. I just needed to get this off my chest really.