How To Deal With This Guy?

I’m really going insane over here because I really want to call him but I know I shouldn’t. There really isn’t any closure at what happened between us. The last time I talked to him was little over two weeks ago when I was trying to tell him my mixed feelings of how I miss being his friends, but sometimes like him more or just sometimes don’t like him and just want to have sex with him. Yeah I know that’s really confusing but that’s what happens when your in a friends with benefits relationship sometimes. So after I told him that, he just said he was confused. I then just asked him how he was feeling, like what he wants, if he wants anything. So he just asked me if I wanted him to be honest. I told him yes but never got a reply. I waited for a couple of days realizing that he wasn’t going to respond and was probably scared off so I just texted him saying that I made up my mind of what I want, that I just want to keep things the way they are (what ever that means). Still no reply for a week and I just broke down knowing that he didn’t want anything from me so I just texted him that I realized he didn’t want anything from me and basically I’m not talking to him ever again. I regret saying that but I don’t think it really matters because he probably wouldn’t have said anything anyway. Now though I just really want to talk to him because I’m still confused even though its probably obvious. I’m trying so hard to move on, even just went to a friend b-day party but still my mind couldn’t stop thinking about him. I need help on what I should do in this situation. So should I call him? or how can I move on? please help