How can I help myself to not feel so empty?

Considering the severity of everything you’re doing, and that you consider yourself to have a substance abuse problem, I dont think you’re going to help yourself out of this situation. Get help now. The only thing that is stopping you from getting help is yourself. If you ask for it, it is available. Talk to a school counselor, talk to a teacher, talk to your parents, however the message needs to get across, but find a therapist. And do it now. You dont want to have been doing this for 10 or 15 years before you finally crash and are forced into treatment. Believe me when I say it is a lot harder to change after 12 years than it is after 2.

I feel your pain!! I really do!

look darling , this is all meaningless you know I had acne too for the last 5 years and it’s all normal all you need to do is simple you wanna get yourself some makeup. Be careful too much makeup is really not prefered by guys .you need to be natural for acne , get yourself a treatment exfolient cream that contains “salisylic acid or salisylates e.g. benzyl salisylate” check it in the ingredients . these creams are good .your face is gonna much better by time . you need to wash your face five times a day seriesly am not kidding it is the best way to reduce the acne infections ( am studying these stuff in a cosmatics course) and after all you need to change your clothes .you need to buy some girlish funky clothes ,for me i don’t wear skirts or like that but i wear girlish clothes by mixing all the coloures around . and something more you need to change your walk it is so much important to change your walk to guys cuz the way you walk either attracks them or pulls them away … gd luck if you need more help hust tell me i’ll be right there to help you