How can I get both of my friends back?

Well, at the beginning of the school year, I got two very nice friends, Amanda and Anna.

Well, I was better friends with Amanda, and Anna was very nice too…

Just at the end of the Fall trimester, Amanda and Anna begin hanging out more. They never invite me to their houses anymore, and I feel terrible about it, because we where only friends for a few months…

Since I was closer to Amanda, I was more comfortable in telling her how I felt. I sent her an email (because I’m too shy to talk to her face to face). And every time I see her check her email, I see her DELETE it! I got so angry after that.

So when I got ticked off, I sent her an email saying I was very mad and didn’t want to be friends with her. Of course, I felt bad right after I sent it, and she actually read it.

After that, I sent her about five different apology emails, and thanked her for not telling anybody about it…

Then about three months later, she tells Anna that I hated her, which wasn’t true at all! And later on they both tell people that I wrote Amanda a hate letter, after sending her five, very long emails that I was sorry!

I later on talked to her about the lies she spread about me (the email was partly true, but I still wouldn’t call it a hate email…). And she still hangs out with me now, but it seems like she’s obsessing over Anna. I love them both as friends, but they just act so differently around me…