How can I clear out my entire criminal background with money???

I am so tired of being looked at negatively because of my past. I was an emt, and used to save the lives of kids that overdosed, and I had a big attitude, with my “patch” and “siren” and ambulance, I thought I was all that. Then I got hooked on drugs, became homeless and lost everything, god showed me that my life could be changed at any given moment. I no longer judge anyone, and I am much more humble. But now that I have changed my life around, in school for three years with a 3.91 gpa, every door is slamming in my face. There is no license, rn, cna, medical asst, radiography, phlebotomy, criminal justice degree, aas health studies, social worker, nothing that I can get because I have a criiminal record now. What is going on? Ever watch “cops” when the officer says…”when you gonna fix your life”? “when you gonna stop doing this and do the right thing’?…okay, so when an addict does the right thing and turns their life around, which isnt easy…society will not allow us to succeed, they slam every door in our face. This is why most addicts give up and “go back out”…what the heck is going on? Everyone I used to get high with , is either in jail, prison, psychiatric hospital, or they are dead. This is just so unfair, and im so tired of hearing people say…”when you gonna stop and do something with your life”…it isnt that easy now is it? Nope, for the rest of my life I will be judged by my mistakes, and poor decisions, no matter how hard I try, there is no where to go. I even saw an ad today on craigslist that was for a doggie daycare, cleaning up poopie, and they wanted a background check!! Omg.. I think this is bull-s. I have been in school for three years, been on the presidents list, held a 4.0 for the first two years, and there is no license I can get because of my past , I go to church, I tithe, I give to the homeless, I love my children, I keep my home nice, I help people out, I am a good person… I know of people that have cleared their criminal record with money…but nobody wants to talk about how they did it. Well I need to know. I dont care what it costs, I want to clear up the skelatins in my closet. I wanted to be a nurse, but no, sorry, you’re a loser, and always will be I guess?? I wanted to be anything in the healthcare field, but nope…even though you turned your life around girl, sorry, we dont care, we dont want you to succeed. obama>>>if you’re listening… Do something for us willya???, let’s see if you can help addicts that do the right thing, like everyone wants us to…and help us get ahead. I even took a class in criminal law, just to learn how to be a law abiding citizen. Can anyone tell how p’o’ed I am? Wowww, I mean wooowww…and I know nurses that steal pills and medication, I know doctors that get dui”s , I know priests that moleste little kids…I mean come on, where is someone like me to go, that used to live outside, getting high, not eating, dying, robbing people for drugs…then with god’s help, pulls out, takes a law class to understand how to be moral and a good person, stops the drugs, works the program, goes back to college, stays on the honors list, remains celebate while separated from her husband, because its a sin to sleep around, I mean for gosh sakes…, I am doing everything right, and there is not one door open for me to walk through. Okay, so, shall I go back?? huh??? , turn around,??? because the door behind me is always open isnt it? Thats where society wants us to go, back through the same door we came out of…thats a darn shame. I look at it like this, at this point…this is the only way to look at it. Only god can move a mountain, please god, move this mountain, just breath on it a little lord will ya? Knock that mountain over, because im not turning around and going back through that door