His sick obsession has broken us :(

Hi guys Recently I discovered my bfs login on a social networking site and much to my horror the guy is women crazy!!! Every female is hot and what not.. And many attempts to chat em up. Hes even met some of them and failed to mention these so called run ins

I came across a particular chain of messages where the conversation had become so steamy they had resorted to all sort of ex rated pics! He claims it was nothing physical but I doubt that…this girl I happened to know.. Small town and so everyone knows every one somehow or the other.

One wedding I had attended (prior to the revelation) I had recognised this girl from the site and the death stares I had received from her, which I texted and told my boyfriend about. He brushed it off saying she might be jealous of me and all that jazz, I queried how they might have knew each other and he said random invite nothing more. He lied!

Strangely we had quite an intimate relationship with a few steamy pics (howver not as crazy as ths other girl and him) and he assured me it was our special thing… A lie ! I realised after this revelation that I might have been feeding into his perverted sick obsession.

I feel that he sorta brought me down to a cheap level and question whether all the things he said to me during the course of our relationship was ever true? I feel inadequate and cheap and dirty and overall my confidence and self esteem has taken a beat.

He says he really loves me and wants us back and cries because he hurt me so bad. He acknowledges that he might have a problem and wants to work on being a better and honest man.

I forgive him but unfortunately cannot help the way I feel everytime I look at myself in the mirror. I come from a good family and have good sound judgment . My one time I opened myself up for the sake of love, this is what I get in return..

I cant help thinking the worst of myself… I cry. I hate that he did this to me,… I hate that I was made a huge idiot… :’(