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I am looking for some advice and I really have nowhere else to turn. I’ve been with my boyfriend, well now ex boyfriend for almost 8 years now. We were once happy but the past two years have been really rough and he has changed so much. He started spending so much more time out with his friends then at home (and that doesn’t include the time he is at work); he smokes weed everyday which really bothers me;(just to be completely honest, I did smoke with him on occasion but not nearly as much as him and I’ve been asking him to stop or cut down for years now); he hangs around people who smoke everyday as well and one of his friends in particular is very disrespectful when it comes to women and his views and opinions really started to rub off on my ex. He started treating me pretty badly, always disrespecting me in front of his friends and honestly I can’t remember the last time he took me out, did anything nice for me or made me feel special at all. Prior to that we would argue about silly things because he is also irresponsible when it comes to money and paying bills and didn’t help me much around the house. As for his point of view he always felt like I wanted things to be too perfect or I acted too grown, and I do admit I may have been a little hard on him, it’s just that we have a 3 year old now and ever since he was born things have gotten more stressful and I really wanted more help from him. I am self-employed and work at home now but up until early this year I always worked outside of the home too and even working at home is tough and time consuming but it’s like he expected me to be some kind of super woman and take care of everything. Then when I gave up on having the house spotless or all the laundry being done, he didn’t care at first but then he started complaining and would say I didn’t do anything all day. He was rude to me a lot and I started being rude back to him too. When he would stay out till the sun came up I’d be home worried and when I’d ask questions he hated that because either his story didn’t make sense or the answers would upset me. I would try to express how unacceptable it was but he would just get angry back at me and we would start arguing. Then I stopped trusting him and not wanting him to go out or I would ask questions before he left and this made things worse because he thought I was trying to control him. I feel he brought it on himself though by being out so much and never coming home when he said he would. I just wanted him to do me right and I wanted to work things out with him but at the time I didn’t know that he just didn’t want to be in a relationship anymore. He never expressed this to me though and I always thought he loved me so much and that we could work through anything. The tention between us kept getting worse and anger started building in him too because he doesn’t like to communicate much and I am an over communicator so I guess it was driving him crazy. At one point he told me he didn’t love me anymore and didn’t care if I dated other people and so I finally got fed up and started dating someone else casually that I met when I was out with a girlfriend. At the same time he started staying at his friends house and not coming home at all, threatening to move out permanently and so I invited the guy over to hang out and watch a movie. This made my ex really mad so he came over and started a bunch of drama and kicked the guy out, then told me he loved me and would never leave me again but I know now it was all just jealousy. Then things got worse and I was called a cheating wh#re and he would say other mean things that would make me cry. I started crying so much. I have to say that judging by the first 5 years he is a decent guy, I say that because he was always there when I truly needed him, he used to be very caring and loving, he’s always held a job, he even got his degree a few years ago and is now very dedicated to his profession and works long hours. He’s a real good dad too. He’s away a lot but he does come by and play with him after work many days, puts him to bed and spends time with him on his day off. I know he’s a really good guy deep down which is why I hold on but he’s just changed so much and unfortunately I really let it take a toll on me emotionally and became very depressed and emotional. I also tend to get loud and upset when we argue which he hates and I know that’s not right I’m just so hurt because he used to be so good to me and then he just started being horrible to me but all I wanted was to be happy with him. He says he can’t stand to see me that way and doesn’t want to treat me bad so that’s why he doesn’t want to talk to me or be around me at all. He’s my best friend though and even though I’ve only mentioned the bad times we’ve had so many good times too. He recently broke up with me for good because of the fact that we argue a lot, it’s ironic though because the ONLY thing we ever argue about now is him never being here for me or hurting his sons feelings by not showing up some nights when he is expecting him, stuff like that. But the days when he comes over after work, plays with his son, is nice to me and talks about something other then leaving we get along so GREAT and it really makes me happy because I remember the sweet guy I used to know. All the bad stuff seems to disappear from my mind for a short time which is really nice cause I’m going through so much right now. He always said the things that upset me so much about him were valid, but he wasn’t able to change for the better, it only got worse and sometimes he blames it on me because he said he wasn’t happy for a long time but unfortunately never really told me that until recently. I agree it was time to split but it’s still very difficult and I am very emotional about the breakup. To make things worse I’m stressed out because he left me with a mortgage that I can’t pay on my own so now I am losing my house and not sure where I’m going to go. Yes the house is in my name because his credit wasn’t too good at the time when our apartment lease was up. Initially he was a little worried about getting the house rather then renting another apartment, but the only fear he expressed was the difficulties of taking care of a house or the financial responsibilities if something breaks down etc., which he was right about that but these were just comments he made and he never really stressed them to me. When he came to look at the house he loved it, he was so excited about it and especially excited about having a garage (he is a mechanic) and a big yard for our son to play in. I know it was stupid of me especially because the house is in my name only, but we were together for so long, I really thought I knew him and I never in a million years would have thought he would leave me and take no responsibility for the financial obligations here or at least help me to rent or sell the house before bailing. We still bought the house together and I don’t understand how he could do that to me. Now I’m broke, my credit is all messed up and I have to figure out where I’m going to live that I can afford on my own for me and my son. He won’t even tell me where he moved to. This also all started happening just after I started back at school and things got so out of control that I had to put it on hold once again, so yes I am a little bitter since I supported him in every way while he was in school and I thought he would take care of me and do the same for me. We had a child though right before he graduated so I couldn’t go back to school right away and then all these problems started happening. I also got in a car accident and my license is now suspended so when I have to drive my son anywhere I’m risking going to jail but he doesn’t seem to care much about that. My step father was also diagnosed with pancreatic cancer a few months ago and the doctors say he has less then one week to live. My mom is so devastated and this is just so difficult for me, especially at a time when everything else in my life seem to be falling apart as well. To top things off I’m 8 weeks pregnant with his second child and he acts like he could care less. We used condoms everytime so I don’t think he believed me at first but I took a pregnancy test and after that he still acted like he didn’t care. This is pretty shocking because he’s a great dad to our son and I’m so devastated because I’m pregnant and very alone. Everytime I’ve tried to talk about he tells me to get an abortion, which although that might be best I have moral issues with that and he knows it. I understand that he’s worried about my health and the babies health because I am emotional right now, depressed at times and I also have cervicitis which makes it a high risk pregnancy until after 12 weeks when I can get treated. I’m still not sure if he’s being honest though about his reasons for wanting me to have an abortion. I pretty much think he doesn’t want the inconvenience of being here for me or having another child with me since he wants to completely separate. Again, understandable but I made my decision and his continuously pushing me to kill my child has hurt more then anything else he has ever done to hurt me before. There’s just so many bad things going on with me right now and I don’t know what to do and I feel so alone. I try to be overly nice to him and be decent for the sake of our son and the one on the way, but it doesn’t change anything he’s still just as cold as ever to me and it upsets me so much. Well, sadly I started bleeding pretty badly the other day and I thought I was having a miscarriage. I called him crying and shockingly he actually took me to the Hospital, but he didn’t come in or anything and went right back to work after that. They told me I might be having a miscarriage and to come back to get my hcg levels tested in a few days. I was in so much pain the other night and I asked him to come by and be here with me but he wouldn’t. He told me to just go to sleep so I ended up having to take myself to the Hospital and they gave me some high milligram motrin for the pain which has helped a little. They also said my hcg levels were going up so I haven’t actually had a miscarriage, it’s just cervical bleeding right now and if I can make it past 12 weeks without miscarrying then I can be treated and I will be fine. But they said I need to reduce as much stress as possible and completely stay off my feet. Again, I asked him to be here for me and explained why but he says no because he doesn’t want to be with me. I don’t even know anyone in this area where we moved and the three close friends I had all moved out of state within the past few years. My sister works and goes to school and she lives an hour away. He has the nerve to tell me I should just call my mom instead, who also lives an hour away and is an emotional wreck because her husband is dying. The doctors say he won’t make it past this week and when I talk to her she is very emotional and she’s also extremely worried about me because of everything else that’s been going on. I just haven’t been able to bring myself to tell her this, I can’t do that to her right now and make things even worse for her. And for him to tell me to fall back on her is dumb anyway because she has to be there with my step dad so no matter what I am alone. I have some support by phone but I feel that this is his child and he should be here for me. Also, I feel that we are still friends and through times like this with other emotional things going on in my life I would think he would reach out to me but he hasn’t. When I try to talk to him about anything he gets angry and it makes things worse he even said he was starting to think of me as an enemy because I won’t leave him alone. I do NOT bother him that much for him to say something like. If something happened and I needed to be rushed to the emergency room the ambulance drivers would be the only one’s there for me and I probably wouldn’t even be able to get a hold him. It’s so devastating and it makes me sick to think about it. He also continues to say that he still loves me but we just need time apart and he hopes to be a family one day but he is destroying any possibility of that by not being here for me right now and making things worse by being so cruel. Any advice or support you can give me would be very much appreciated and I’d also like to know if I’m wrong for expecting this from him. I could really use some help and advice. Thanks so much.

Sad, Lonely and Confused in Illinois

Answer #1

Wow.. I agree about the guy you can not worrie about him. Just try your hardest to put all of your focus on god!! and taking care of you and that baby’s!! Try not to think about the bad and even if you do try to make something positive about the situation and you sound like a very strong person and I admire you for that! About the house I don’t know if you have FIA there but find out It’s called (Family independent agency) Sign up for the program and they will help you out with that or there are churches that will also help out!! I will pray about it !! I found this site for you check it out !! http://ww.storknet.com/cubbies/parenting/finances.htm

and I found numbers and addresses to call that will help you pay for you house!

The Salvation Army Ms.Claudia Rowland 5040 N.Nipulaski Road Chicago. IL 60630 773-205-3565 Fax 773-205-3585 I called this phone number and it works !!

Energy Assistance Foundation Mr. Phillip Beach P.O. box 1758 Decatur, IL 6225 217-422-3203 fax 217-362- 3897 I called this phone number and it works !!

Nicor Gas Mr. Julian Brown 1844 Ferry Road Naperville, IL 60563 630-388-2763 Fax 630-983-4237 I called this phone number and it works !!

Answer #2

Please don’t abort your child..

Few will tell you the truth, that abortion is murder..

that God loves you..

and that he is Jesus Christ..

I may not be able to work out all this pain for you..

but I assure you He can..

He has done it in my life ..

He can do it in yours..

Answer #3

man i read that whole story i think that is so wrong of that guy i would see your house and live in a lil apartment with you and your son you dont need that asshole he hasent did nothing good for you or your son or move closer to you family they will always be there for you email me if you want melisa_15_60609@yahoo.com

Answer #4

Just remember think positive

Answer #5

Wow you are from the same state as me. I really think you need to leave the baby’s daddy,and just be happy thinking about the future kid. Sure you are depressed,but remember no man is worth all that drama.You have a future with a baby to think about.Do not kill your kid,because you’re trying to get back at him.Remember you are hurting yourself in the process,since it’s your body. I really think this guy does need to grow up,and stop thinking about his guy friends and put you first. I am so glad I have a man who supports me no matter what.I was once,well okay three times in your spot.Sure turns out I wasn’t pregnant after all,but I dunno back then I used to think maybe having a baby solo isn’t so bad.

Answer #6


First off it is very sad you do sound strong my sister is high risk an lost an son 25 weeks my nephew lived 32 hours right after my sister lost her baby boy my cousin lost both her twins girls my sister now talks to other high risk mothers and helps them so if you need someone talk to i will get in touch with my sister anyway do what best for you an your son i no hard but keep your head dont let any man get you down an the father of your son needs stand an not only be there for you but for your son if the father of your son wants act like this i tell him fine stay way in tell he can get his head on right you dont need that crap sounds like me anyway he just trying get out helping you an taken care your son will girl if i hope this helps some if you need talk send me message take care

Answer #7

Listen, I’m going to give it to you straight as possible. I’am pregnant also and the father is a complete jerk, very similiar, it hurts more than we could probably ever say or write into words! I know! Move closer to your family, don’t be a martyr, cry all you want, lord knows I do. I think for me the hardest part is having no control over something that means so much to me. But you know what, they are not going to change, no matter how much we love them!Or how nice we are. Focus on you and your child these are things you actually have some control over, eat right and surround yourself with people who love you. Sub-let your house and kick him out if he’s living there, you are in no condition to be fighting or pleading or begging for someone who obviously doesn’t know what the heck he wants. YOU WILL NOT BE ABLE TO CHANGE HIS MIND IF HE HAS ALREADY DECIDED. Just get outta there! If I can somehow mustre up enough strength to do this alone I know you can! You are amazing!

Answer #8

Wow… this is sad. I agree with Mel, you should try and sell your house and live somewhere smaller start l=you life again.. Good luk you sound like a strong woman!!!

Answer #9

Sell the baby on the streets, and go back with your boyfriend if you forgive him he will change for the better.

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