Heartbroiken and confused

I have had a long distance relationship for the past 3 years. He lived in manchester I live in london. I met him on internet dating, he was an asylum seeker and had nothing to his name. I loved him for what he was as a person. I have one daughter who is grown up and I am divorced. He was 10 years younger then me. A non practising muslim from iraq. I am non muslim

He was living with friends in a house and I had been there once. He used to tell me he did not feel comfortable when went there with his friends around. We decided that he would come to london and that when he gets his own place I could go then. I always felt uncomfortable, that I could not go. I used to wonder what is he hiding.

He used to text me everynight and speak every couple of days. He was a chef and work late. He got stay in this country a year ago and did not use me for anything. I was always scared that when he gets everything he would leave me. That is exactly what happened, he got a council place and I went there before xmas. When I was there he felt uncomfortable holding my hand as we walked throught manchester shopping centre. When he was in london with me he was ok.

I felt ill I had to have a big operation he never come to see me at the hospital could not take a day off. He phoned my house to see how it went.

Just before xmas he said he wanted space and that he could not text me everynight and that if he does not that I should not worry. I used to worry that if something happened to him I would not know. I had already been abandon once in a relationship.

He hate to talk to me on his day off but when I met him first he told me he had never had a girlfriend and that I was his first and that he was a virgin. He performed really well so I used to question him. That I could mould him.

If I phoned him he hated when I would ring couple of times as I would get worried when there was no answer. I had a big arguement with him and he told me that his feelings have changed and that he does not love me the way he did. I felt hurt, and I did beg his not to break the relationship as I did not want carry the pain of being hurt. After he told me his feelings have changed we still spoke on the phone and I said I need a proper closure so we decide to meet. I got ill so I cancelled it and then he told me to let him know when I want to next meet him. I was suspose to meet him monday just gone. He wanted to come to london for few hours then he would go home. I would of met him at a railway station. He made out that he did not want me to travel from manchester as I would be upset after the meeting and he did not want to feel responsible.

I was scared and feeling very low and I had operation last year I was still in pain. I said to him I am in two minds. Anyway I decide to see if he really cares. He phoned me on saturday 8 feb and sunday and monday.also on the day I was suspose to meet which was on tuesday the 11th feb I never answered the phone or answered his text. Since that day he has only text me last sunday and not actual rang and does not seem worried as to what has happened to me. Just sends me a text asking how I am and he says hello and wishes me well. He has not bothered like I would of. It makes me wonder, I am confused and hurt dont know what to do. Could you please help me thanks.