my family makes fun of me constantly

I’m so sorry for you but I honestly don’t know… I’m the same way. my family says hurtful things that they don’t even realize are bad and I don’t have anything in common with them. really the best answer I have for you is that maybe you shouldn’t try to be part of your family, sorry that’s kind of counter productive but that’s what I did and I’m actually happier since I decided to do that. I barely talk to my parents unless they try to start a conversation and I’m either in this room on my computer, locked myself in my room with my xm radio on just staring at the wall or texting my fiends, or outside going somewhere on my bike. if you have a rally close relationship with your friends than talk to them and share any problems with them, I have actual found that most of the time they are more understanding and give better advice than a parent ever could. and the next time they say that you’re a wannabe emo than tell them that you’re goth or if they’re really making you mad than say something to them that would make the cry as much as you do at night after you go to bed. I’ve found that life is to sort to waste trying to fit in with the wrong people, even if they are your family. if they mistreat you that bad then you shouldn’t feel bad about saying stuff like that. the only time my mom says anything to me is when she’s angry at me or she is getting me to do my homework. it’s gotten to the point where I want to scream every time she brings up my older brother because he is a huge fuckup and she treats him like he’s a baby but when it comes to me everything I do is more than just wrong its like I tried to screw up. she’s disappointed when I get a grade that’s out of the 90’s even though I get chronic headaches that make me very anti social and make me feel like crawling up in a ball in the corner of my room and crying. if it seems like you’ve written this than listen really closely… you are depressed but it’s nothing you can’t get over or control, your friends are the best bet to happiness and you should turn to them, especially if you have one that has a similar problem because that can really make you guys close. if everyone thinks that you’re a wannabe emo then you’re a really emotional person so I don’t know if you’re a guy or a girl but you should get some friends that are girls, that worked for me. the only problem that I have noticed is that I fell in love with one of them and she doesn’t feel the same way back… but that’s not all bad, if you feel that way about someone then that’s just more incentive to make yourself a better person. I’m hoping that you are even a little similar to me because if you aren’t then this story is just a big waste of your time so sorry if you’re normal… I personally hate myself and have decided to spend my time helping my friends with their problems no matter if it hurts me or not, I even help the girl I like with her relationship problems. well, good luck! =)