Does my boyfriend really love me?

I’ve been with my boy for 2 years now. We have broken up and gotten back together a bunch of times. We have cheated on eachother and done some pretty shady stuff…after all the bullshit though we still stayed together… We actually lived together the entire time except for when we were split up… 3 months ago.. He left me to be with this girl he knew before me.. A girl he lost his virginity to.. He always told me I was his first love but then when they got together he let her blow up his myspace saying im taken by my first love.. And whatever… Anyways she left him to be with someone else… So he started trying to add me on myspace. He kept sending me messages but I wouldnt reply… He kept calling me but I wouldnt talk to him… And finally he came to my work and I hid from him. He hurt me so bad that I just was done… But I ended up taking him back a month later after I gave in and started hanging with him again…

I told him that this was his last chance since everything has already been all bad… Things were good but then he started working out of town.. He told me he had some stuff to do and he just left one day to go out of town and work with his friend.. They came back a few days later.. I was okay with it because he was working.. And he never really worked. So the other night he came home at 12 from being out of town and I told him im not going to deal with this anymore because he kept lying about where he was and what he was doing.. Because my friend dates his friend so I find everything out. So he told me he wasnt going out of town the next day and next thing I know its 7 am.. His friend is blowing up his phone.. I picked up and told him to stop treating my boyfriend like hes a taxi because they use his car… And my boyfriend said he already put the gas in so they had to go out of town… Then he just got dressed and left…

We have been through helll with eachother but we kept going back to eachother… Is that love or attachment.. I mean I know I love him.. But then I wonder why I love someone who treats me so bad… Its like when we are together things are perfect but we just dont trust eachother.. So we kept messing up. But I decided to learn how to trust him.. But I know he doesnt trust me yet.. I dont even think he cares anymore…

Anyways what do you think?? Does he love me or am I just convenient when he needs me… After 2 years of bull wouldnt you just get rid of that person if you hated them that much? Or did I turn into a person he uses when he needs things…I don’t know

We arent together as of now Im back to being heartbroken