do I have trust issues? should I trust him?

I don’t think you are ready for a relationship at the moment. You need to be happy in yourself to have a successful relationship and I don’t think maybe you are? Obviously things have hurt you in the past, and you need to deal with them first. It is good you were honest with your boyfriend so I think what you need to do now is take a step back. Tell him you love him too, but you think being hurt has left you with a few things to deal with before you can fully commit and you hope he understands. Tell him you want to be with him one day, and then go and try and get some help. If he does actually love you then he will wait for you to be ready (you can still chat and stay friends in the meantime).

Do you attend school or college? If so they should have a counselling service. There should be no stigma about counselling, as it is such a beneficial thing to have. If you have the service available to you, the use it. You don’t need to tell anyone you are going, and the privacy policy of the counsellor means they can’t either, so don’t worry.

Talking about the times you have been hurt will help you move past them. It will be painful, but after you will honestly feel so much happier. Counsellors are trained to deal with all of these things and can teach you how to have a positive relationship and move on from your past.

Hopefully if you do that then you will learn that you are worthy of love, as you really ae, and be able to believe he loves you. He sounds fairly decent and like his intentions are good.

Breaking up that many times in 4 months is a very unhealthy relationship, and unless you work on you then that will never change and the cycle will continue, making you question more and more. Like I said, if he loves you, he will let you deal with this, and then you can get back together if you feel it is right after. Good luck!