Do I actually like him?

Do I actually like him? Or is my heart hanging on to somthing I used to really want? & in the past.

Okay me and this boy were seeing each other last summer he is like 3years older then me, I had never kissed a guy at that time and he was gna be my first I was rli scared,neverous and then I kissed him and but I was still neverous and he asked me out before but I said I wasent sure if I loved him or not.

Then I went on holiday & he told my friend he is gna ask me out when I got back and she told me this the day I was ment to go on holiday becuase we had a passport delay unfortnaley, but we went on holiday a week later and I decided I was going to see how I felt about him and I missed him loads realised I love him.

The day I go back I went on msn and he was on and he dint talk to me and then I found out he went to cinema with some girls and we had an argument and dint speak for like 3? 4 weeks and I still loved him tho I was angry we made up but we dint really speak like bestfriends anymore & I told him I loved him like 1month later I think & he dint feel the same and he hasent since I’ve told him twice and he just stops talking to me when I tell him cause I know he don’t wna hurt me so he stop talking to me so he dont lead me on.

But anyway from what im feeling now. I still get the visions of us together when were been together, I feel at atomsphere or a tinkels when we in that shop together. I miss him a lot, I dream about him, he’s the last thing I think of when I go to bed, I sometimes think how it could of been and all the songs realte to him (love ones) & I think of him. & when I see him in the city I thinkle up and my tummy roles and im not sure what to say. but he has a girlfriend now and im kinda jelouse I suppose. but when I look at some of his pictures say to me, why do I want him? How come I like him? Do I really like that boy?

What do you think?