How to stop my depression?

The other night I went to bed and couldn’t get to sleep and laid there and became increasingly depressed. The next morning when I woke up I laid in bed until like 1:15 because I had no reason to get up.

Since then I’ve been doing nothing but trying to busy myself with relatively fun things to do, and basically trying to distract myself from my depression. This messes with my sleep schedule some, as I try putting off going to bed in fear that I’ll lay there and be depressed.

I really need to get a job, but thinking about having a job makes me depressed, so I’ve been avoiding that whilst trying to distract myself from being depressed.

I don’t know what to do about this depression, and I’m afraid to tell anyone because chances are they won’t take me seriously and will get all mad because my family sucks and thats how they operate, and even if someone did, I’m not sure how it would help, as once several years back when I was frequently depressed they put me on anti-depressants, which made me even more depressed, and sent me to a psychiatrist, who did nothing but basically make me want to commit suicide.

No, I’m not going to commit suicide. I’m just depressed, and it makes life suck. And my life is really boring, and I want to leave. Right now. I’m sick of this place.