Could I be a lesbian?

I’m 13.I’m a girl.I feel that I’m overeffactuated with breasts.I watch pornography.The thought of girls licking me turns me on.I probably won’t try it because I’m afraid that I might like it and I think that I might like it.That’s not the only thing holding me back.Do I like it because it’s so taboo?I was thinking about girls,it turned me on.Does that mean that I’m a lesbian,are those just horomones?I don’t want to be a bisexual either!I just want to be straight!Does this make me a lesbian or something?When I think about having sex with a guy,I get really turned on.I want to marry a guy.I want to have a relationship with a guy.Now something is telling me that I wish a girl would come onto me.Does also mean that I’m a lesbian?There’s this girl at my school that I feel attracted to but it’s not a strong attraction.Like some days,I’ll say she’s pretty and other days,I think that I’m attracted to her so it’s really confusing.I don’t think that I would ask her out.If I really was attracted to her then I would think about her a lot and ask her out.I don’t do that.Even if she was a lesbian,no.Does this mean that I’m not straight?I sometimes feel like I want to be with a girl because of sex.But I know that I want to be with a guy.Sometimes,I want a girl to lick me.I’ve always wanted to be with a guy,all of my life.It’s just now,I’m getting all of these strange feelings.Will these feelings go away?I was thinking about how hot it would be to have sex with a girl and how it would feel.Like one minute,I’ll ask myself do I want to be want a man.I’m really confused on what I want but I would be happier with a guy.I love guys.I wasn’t actually thinking about having a actual relationship with a girl until someone mentioned it.Now I’m wondering if I want a girlfriend,does it sound like it?I want to be straight!I don’t want to be bi sexual either!I want to kill myself because I can’t stop worrying about this and if I’m unstraight then I might as well go ahead and kill myself!I can’t say that I want to be in a relationship with a girl.I just don’t find it that interesting.It’s not for me.If I’m sexually and physically attracted girls,what does that mean?I don’t know what I want and don’t want.I was watching lesbian porn and I was wishing that was me.Maybe I didn’t.All I know is that I thought it was hot and maybe I would had liked to had given it a try but still my morals don’t approve.I’m pretty sure that my love for boys is much greater than my love for girls.I always think about guys!If a girl offered to have sex with me,I don’t know what I would say.I haven’t tried to have sex with a girl nor do I intend to have sex with a girl.I’m comfortable with the idea of being with a girl.It turns me on.I think that majority of the stuff that turns me on,I mistaken actually liking it for wanting it.Is that the problem then? I won’t be happy with my life if I am bi sexual or a lesbian,I won’t! When I was six,I had a crush on my gym teacher.I thought about sex with him.It wasn’t real sex at the time,it was mostly like him kissing me and doing bad things to me sexually.This went on for about a couple of years.I didn’t really have a sexually active mind at nine and ten but when eleven hit!Wow!I started thinking about any kind of sex and by the time of twelve,it got a lot worse.I think the first time I had watched porn was when I was probably around seven or eight or maybe a little bit older.Then when I turned twelve and thirteen,I started watching it more and reading incest stories and also rape stories.I don’t know if I was molested.I even remember trying to make my barbie dolls have sex.I have thoughts about being raped.I do however remember when I was about five or six,I remember on Christmas night,I had a rash down there and my mom of course had to put the ointment on down there.So when she did I all of a sudden said “I hope someone touches me right there one day.” Me and my friend are close.I was thinking about how pretty she is and she’s so nice to me or at least most of the time she is.Then I started to imagine sex with her and think about how nice and gentle it would be and how her body would be and how hot it would be.I want to be straight and I want to have sex with guys when I grow up and get married and I don’t want this to stop it.I have a much more deeper love for guys than girls though.What does that mean though?I hope that I’m not emotionally attracted to her because if I’m then that means that I’m bi sexual or something.Does it sound like I am?Do we just have a truly good friendship? I like girls’ bodies but I feel that I want to have sex with them because it looks very inviting and fun but I won’t. I was just masturbating a few days ago and I thought to myself “I want to be a lesbian because it was be so hot to have sex with a girl.”I was really horny.Does it sound like I really meant that? This is why I won’t experiment with a girl.

It against my beliefs and my religious beliefs. I don’t want to regret it. It would ruin my chances of getting married to a man. I want my first time to be with a boy. I’m afraid that I might like it. I don’t think it’s a lifestyle that I would want to lead. If it is going to make me a lesbian by experimenting then I definitely don’t want to. I believe that man is for woman as woman is for man. I don’t want to deal with the shame. I know that guys are right for me.

Is this how you know that you do not want to experiment with a girl?

This is how I know that I don’t want to be a lesbian though.- I don’t want to live with the shame. I want to marry a guy. I don’t want to live the lifestyle. I most likely wouldn’t be happy with a girl. It’s against my beliefs. I haven’t dated a girl and if I wanted to,I would have already done it. I don’t think that I would have sex with a girl. The only time that I think about sex with girls is when someone mentions it or when I masturabte or when I am worried about it. I want to be straight because I know that I would be a lot happier that way. I love guys. Is that how you know?

This is how I know that I want to be with a guy.- I’m happy with guys. If I didn’t want to be with guys,I wouldn’t be so worried about all of this. I imagine myself with them daily. I love guys. I want to marry a guy. When I grow up,I want to have sex with a guy. I want to date guys. I want to be with guys. It’s not an ambomination of GOD to be with a guy when you are a girl. I like the firmness and strongness and aggressiveness that guys have. Is that how you know?

I asked myself if I had the chance to marry a guy and a girl,would I do it?I said maybe.I want to marry guys.Just because I said that I probably woud marry both,does that mean that I am bisexual?Am I thinking too much?I don’t know if I would have sex with a girl.One part says yes and another says no!I might kiss a girl but I doubt anything else.Okay,to be honest,I probably wouldn’t even kiss a girl,I don’t know why,but I jsust probably wouldn’t!Is wanting to have sex with a girl just curiousity or does it mean that I’m a lesbian?Nevertheless,I was thinking what if I really want to have sex with a girl.That makes me a lesbian,doesn’t it?Does it sound like I want to have sex with a girl?What if I want to go farther than experimenting?Am I mistaking wanting to experiment with it turning me on? Now something is questioning me of if I would try something with a girl even though I keep telling myself that I wouldn’t.All this time up until today,I kept saying that I wouldn’t try anything with a girl,now something is telling me that I would.But the thing is that no matter how much that voice speaks,I won’t act on it because I’ll regret it.I think the real reason of why I’m feeling all of this is because I questioned myself.I havent’t ever really thought about this stuff this bad before until I asked myself was I straight.The more I question myself,the more I start to come up with things such as “I might like her”.It’s because it’s on my mind at the time.Is that why? I’m so worried right now.I don’t know if I’m sexually attracted to women.Being sexually attracted to women means that you want to have sex with them and if I want to have sex with one then that makes me a lesbian even though it’s experimenting,doesn’t it?BUT I DON’T KNOW IF ALL I WANT TO DO IS EXPERIMENT,WHAT IF I WANT TO GO FURTHER? I’ve been thinking about sex since I was 6.So now in my mind,I am married to a guy named Eric and I have three kids,Riley,Aurora,and Nicolette.This is all in my imagination by the way.But I think about bondage sex,hardcore sex,gentle sex,regular sex,and kinky sex.I’m still a virgin and I plan to be a virgin until I get married.I’m sticking to that definitely.So the other day,I was thinking about a guy licking me and since I have been depressed about my sexuality,the thought of a girl licking me popped up in my head.Is it because I’ve been thinking about this so much for the last couple of days or so?I like lesbian porn more than I do any other kind.Also when I masturbate,I think about girls licking me or licking each other.It makes me orgasm faster.I don’t want to be a lesbian.I haven’t dated or had sex with a girl.I think girls are pretty.I love boys.I have only dated boys.I’m turned on by lesbian porn.I want to be straight.I’ve always wanted to marry a man when I grow up.I’m not even supporting gay or lesbian beliefs.I haven’t had sex and don’t plan to until I am married (to a man of course.)All I think about is sex though.I only think about sex with girls when I masturbate or when someone mentions it or because I’m worried about it.If I want a girl to lick me and have sex with me then that means that I am a lesbian,right? I can’t get married now!No man will want to marry me if I’m unstraight.I don’t want to be a lesbian.I want to be with guys but a part of me tells me that I want to have sex with a girl but I won’t do it.At least I don’t think I would.I’m happy with guys.Does it sound like I am straight or bi-cuirous? I know that I wouldn’t do it because- It is wrong or at least to me. I would not want to carry the shame of it. It would ruin my chances with a guy when I grow up. I wouldn’t want to be considered bi or a lesbian for doing it. I would regret it because I am already regretting just the thought of it. Is that how you know that you wouldn’t do it? I don’t know if I want to have sex with a girl but I think I want to experiment but I do not know.I’m curious to what it would be like and I think that it would feel good,I think that I would rather not.Something tells me that I want to be intimate with a girl but I think I want to experiment but I probably wouldn’t try anything with girls.People are telling me to do what makes me happy,being with guys makes me happy.So does it sound like I am a lesbian?If I liked girls then I would be dating them.If I find out that I’m unstraight,I might kill myself.Being a lesbian or bisexual is an abomination in the sight of GOD.I know that I’m attracted to guys.Sometimes my mind tells me that I want to have sex with a girl.I don’t want to be bisexual or a lesbian.I want to be straight.I really don’t think that I’m going to date or have sex with a girl even though my mind sometimes tells me that I want to.

I want to be straight. Guys make me very happy. I haven’t dated a girl. I love guys. I just have thoughts about it. My mind sometimes tells me that I want to have sex with a girl but I wouldn’t do it,at least I don’t think that I would. To me it’s wrong and I don’t want to be a lesbian or bisexual. I’m worried about this. I’ve always imagined myself with guys and marrying guys. I don’t want to live with the shame of being a lesbian or being bi.

I went to the doctor once and the doctor touched me in a “place” and I was eleven or getting ready to turn twelve.When she touched me,I kind of liked it but I felt uncomfortable.Even after she did it,I felt uncomfortable,it was a woman doctor.Am I a lesbian?Also when my mom tickles me or touches me on my shoulders,I get sexually excited.I’m very ticklesh.I want to be straight.Am I a lesbian? My biggest fear is that when I meet a guy and want to get married,he might not want to marry me if he thinks that I’m not straight.I don’t want to know what is wrong and what is right because I still believe what I believe.Am I straight?Is it my horomones telling that I want to be with girls?I don’t know if I want to have sex with girl,does it sound like I do? Being with a guy makes me very happy.No man will like me!When I masturbate,I get more turned on by thinking girls are licking me than I do guys.So what does this mean? One thing tells me that I want to be with a girl and another part of me says that I don’t.I’ve always wanted to be with a guy and no one is going to tell me that I don’t. I wouldn’t have sex with a girl for a lot of reasons.I don’t know if I want to have sex with a girl.I think that I want to experiment when I get older but I most likely won’t. There’s a lot of things holding me back including myself.I don’t know what is telling me that I want to experiment but I am trying to ignore that voice.I know that I most likely wouldn’t but I’m just curious as to what it would be like and would I like it.Does that mean that I am a lesbian?I can’t marry a guy now!He won’t want to marry me if he thinks that I am a lesbian or bisexual?Am I just somewhat curious?

There’s this girl at my school.Then I thought “Maybe I’m attracted to her.”I tried to visualize what it would be like to be with her.I don’t know if I would go out with her because that’s a little too far for me and I’m pretty sure that I wouldn’t.80% that I wouldn’t.I have always imagined myself with a guy.Did I just admire her and her body?Or am I lesbian for thinking this about her and feeling this way about her?Am I sexually or physically attracted to her?I did want to touch her breasts or one of her other body parts but I don’t think that I would do it.

Is all of this just my horomones acting up?Is this why I can’t make up my mind about anything?

I always think about guys.When I masturbate,I get into the heat of the moment and I just think about anything that would turn me on.When my mom was touching my shoulder,I was hoping that she would go farther.I’m really ticklesh on my shoulder.I would probably be unhappy with a girl.I always think about guys daily,everyday,I think about them daily.Am I a lesbian for wanting my mom to go further for that moment? My mind tells me one thing and my heart tells me different things.I want to kill myself over this because I just want to be straight.I think that girls are attractive.I want to be with a guy for the rest of my life.What am I?I can’t get a husband or boyfriend now! Something tells me that I want to try it one day.I taught that it is wrong but if that makes me a lesbian then I don’t want to try it.Nevertheless,I always pictured myself with guys.I’m reluctant with doing it when I get older because I don’t want to be a lesbian.Even if it doesn’t make me a lesbian,it’s still the point of the thing.The fact that I might want to try it later on in life scares me.I’m NOT sure if I am going to try it anywhere in the future but I’m 75% sure that I wouldn’t because that’s not who I am or at least I don’t think that I would try it.Would trying it make me a lesbian or something? I think that I want to try something with a girl or at least something tells me that I do,there’s some things holding me back.It’s against my beliefs and if it makes me a lesbian or bisexual if I do it,I definitely don’t want to do it.I want to be with guys but I wonder what it would be like with girls.I know that no matter how much these urges come to me to try it,that I won’t give in.Does it make me a lesbian becase I wanted to try it or thought about it?I’m not going to experiment,I refuse to no matter how bad the urge is because I know that later on in life,I won’t regret it either.I truly want to just really kill myself over this!I only think about sex with girls when someone mentions it and when I masturbate.Other than that,I always think about sex with guys.I want to be with a guy.I’m happy with guys.Does it sound like I’m straight?