Am I over him?

Okaii I’ve liked this boy 2 years know &+ through that we rlii good mates go iceskatin and that sometimes he would complement me or flirt with me, and I know he dosent like me in that way.. I love him’ I know he thinks im ugly as my mate said but I havent accualy asked him ;S anyway I fell out with a friend &+ he always help me with problems and he said the meaniest thing anyone said to me,

• no wonder why he choice other girls over you, he take it back and he said he only said it cauz he knew it would hurt me, I cried, obv. and I was in the car other day and it was sun , and I was thinking , &+ smilin , I dont think I fancy him no more, but I do and I dont &+ I need some help am I..?

I Still Love getting hugs of him ( I huged him yesterday ;D like az if we was going out I suppose ) when im going down the city, I always wna go park way just incase we see him when play out , go rnd up near his housee, kinda songs still remind me of him still talk bouh him

but I say to my friends iim nearly over him I dont think about him half as much dont talk much about him on msn to friends dont cry no more.. I think of getting with other boys but then again I want to go dwn near there area &+ make sure he see me holding there hand

like am I half way there,? or over him or still in looove