All these feelings coming back

My old best friend had me start tlking to thomasmy first love we tlked for a couple days online and stuff than we went out after tlking all night and day for like 3 days lol..than he dumped me bc we didnt know each other well enough and stuff soo than we werent friends sum who we became friends again than alil while ago he started dateing my old best friend who set us up sooo dumb considering all the hours I spent crying over him infront of her..soo than it complelty changed things wit me & my friend but me && thomas pretty much stayed the same way && weve been friends for a couple years now and I’ve still always cared a lot for him than recently we hung out friday and we went to eat and saw my horses and we went for a wlk on the boardwalk in corinna if you know what that is its by the water and theres a place with benches you can stop and we stopd and sat & he reminded me I promised him a back massage which I gave him than he layed down on the board walk looking up at the stars than I did the same and it was amazing just laying there than id tickle him and stuff and his hands would just stay on me after than adventually we were just laying in eachothers arms from 9-11pm and he put his hands through my hair at one time and said jess I really care about you and I just want to c you happy…duhh thomas your the one who makes me happy but yeh I had a boyfriend for a few days soo it wasent really cheating on him because I wasent doing anything really…but yeh I just dumped him yesterday && were friends soo I told him why im still in love with thomas and I just cant b with anyone else && I kinda miss him as in jacob the old boyfriend he’s ahsum hes just..no thomas..&& after I broke up with jacob I kinda told thomas how I still fell I told him how everything reminds me of him && he sent back in a text “oh jess…I wish you could have what you want..” soo apperintly he still just wnts 2b friends..I don’t know things are just 2 complicated && yes this would b the short version lol..