What are some things that come to mind when reading this?

My interpretation of it is that, a man is outside somewhere, theres a women who’s waiting for him to be done and she’s frowning because she doesnt want to die, but she doesnt want to live without him, he writes in his own blood, confessions and sins that he might have made, it’s getting dark so he asks the moon to shine brighter so he can have more light to write. He just keeps writing and writing. In the fourth stanza he lets the paper fall, he then stabs the women who was waiting for him to do so in stanza two. He touches her blood spill on the ground and feels it go as it seeps into the ground. Stanza five he kills himself with some sort of poison gas, it makes him sleepy and he falls asleep and dies. Stanza six it starts to rain, which he knew it would, it makes the blood un off the page and the blue lines on the page “bleeds” and turns the page blue. In stanza seven the paper then turns to grey and is very soaked and almost gone from the rain, the rain stops, and a rainbow comes, his blood is no longer running through his veins or off the paper and the earth is quiet in their deaths. Stanzas eight, nine, and, ten are in retrospect. In eight it goes over how he held the paper in his hand, the paper that he wrote of his sins on, which his sins were who he was, and he let the paper fall and be ruined by the rain, the rain he knew would come and ruin his paper, because he’s not an evil man and he didnt want to leave any evil behind in the world he just wanted to get all his sins out on paper before he died and then have his sins die with him, but only for a perod of time until the world is ready to know of them, beacuse in stanza nine he wants them to return and for everyone to know them and be moved by them and to know that everyone sins. The humiliation he felt for some of hs sins was strong and he wants the world to know that those things happen, but even though he knows this he still cant stop feeling it because in stanzas ten and eleven his heart is weak still from it, from one of the sins he’s made more than the others, the one where he feels he accept that women’s love, but couldnt give it back to her like she deserved and in the moment when he first realized that is when he decided he would kill himself and forever torture himself for it to make it up to her. Stanzas tweleve and thirteen arent in retrospect anymore. They’re continuing to tell of how he poisoned himself and let himself die and decompose into a flower which would one day be plucked by a little girl and worn in her hair, which would make him happy, because he wanted to leave behind something beautiful.