How to help out my suicidal dad?

Hello, First of all thank you for taking the time to read…

I know you can’t provide much advice as you Don’t know me personally but anything you can provide Is greatly appreciated.

I currently work full time in the City. Get up at 6am, get ready, catch the train, and get into work by 8am. I have been with the same organisation for about 7-8 ‘fun’ years. It feels as though my time is up here. Like mentally tired of the people and bored with the work. I have experienced allot of ups and downs within this organisation with people and work.

The only thing, throughout my time here I have found the managers never really support you. One manager will tell you to do something one way, another one will tell you to do it another way. Then when you explain that you did it they way the other manager asked you, the other Manager will not say he did. The managers will just let you fry in the hot seat then make smarty pants smart ass comments. I just tired of the bull crap. They are always smartasses but I think if I leave this job my family will be disappointed in me.

I do not want to bring disappointment to anyone - especially mum (who I live with)! I just want to be happy. I mean, I would love to get a job closer to home, but I know I won’t get the same pay as I do now. (As long as I save on travel expenses! It should even out)

Anyhow, my dad lives in another suburb to me and I go to visit him weekly. He is a full time glazier and is about 63 years old. I asked him what I should do and he said that if I am unhappy, and can get a job closer to home to do it. (I just wish it was that simple.)

He also was drinking (can be heavy drinker) and eventually got emotional (but that’s another story for later on) He asked me if I was going to look after him when he is old. I always say that he is already old! (As a joke)

He basically said he cannot keep up with life as well, with a full time work, shopping, cleaning up the house garden, cleaning pool etc (He lives by himself) I said I was happy to help out whenever he needs. Just to give me a call. But I think he was leaning more on living with him and helping him out.

Anyway time passes, he sank a few more beers, we had a chat about life and that was it. Ok, here comes the emotional drunk bit….as I went to leave he said he cannot put up with life and that doesn’t want to be around for much longer. That ruins me, because I have not really spent much of my adult life with him. He then said he was suicidal. “I don’t want to live” He cries at me. He then said never to put him in a nursing home ever! I said I promise I wouldn’t. (At least this indicated to me he was going to commit suicide straight away)

But I am still worried.

Now WTF do I do? Do I quit my job spend more time with Dad before ‘his’ time is up and help him out around the house? Possibly find a part time job locally? I don’t really know if the suicidal thing was a mind game he was playing. I just want everyone to be happy.

Any advice at all, anything is great. Thanks for your time once again.

Regards, Mr E