Im In Love With Someone Other Than My Boyfrien D

I have a boyfriend, but i dont know if im in love with him anymore. I live with him and we have been dating for over 2 years. I dont know if im with him becuase i need him or because i love him. I cheeted on him once i moved to college, but when he moved up i stopped. but now i have this intense crush on one of our friends. and i want him. but i dont know what to do cus he’s a mutual friend. and i dont know if he likes me anyways. i need to know that i can still have a realtionship with my boyfriend if i do anything with this guy, or that he will be my boyfriend. I dont know what my problem is. i think i need to be with someone- anyone. i feel i might be dependent on him because i havent been alone in such a long time. im not satisfied with my boyfriend. I feel kind of cheeted, like i am in love with him, but im still young and i want to play and experiment. he was my first, but he has had sex with other people. i guess i feel its unfair that he got to play and i didnt, but i want to now. and the cheating was really sucky. it didnt satisfy anything. the boy was a virgin before i met him, and i convinced him to have sex with me, but it really sucked.

the feeling is not going away. i really want that other boy. and were going to be moving in with him net year…so i guess i have to wait to do anything until then so then i wont get to move in with him and the bf finds out. i really am confused i dont think im attracted to my boyfriend anymore either and i think im in love with this other boy. he is just so amazing and i know ive been trying to look good for him and flirt with him, even infront of my bf (who doesnt get it…sort of) also the boy im crushing on may or may not live with us. he might move back home. and i feel that i need to do something iwth him, and what if i dont get the chance because i waited? im really shy, and havent talked to him alone much. always with a friend or my boyfriend

please someone help me if they can work through all that nonsense what should i do?