Is anyone else trying to lose weight?

I do.. I count calories all the time, but be careful! I went from being a fast food junkie, to healthy, to eating nothing but a banana for breakfast, two apples for lunch, a and a jacket potato with mushrooms for dinner because of this! I even used to feel really horrible about myself if I had a one calorie ice pop! And then when I saw my boyfrend get really upset about it one day, it just shocked me into eating in order to make him happy, the problem was, because I hadn’t eaten chocolate or cakes in so long, I went crazy, eating 3000 calories in one go of simply chocolate! The amazing thing was though for a couple of weeks, I didn’t put on any weight, I was just under eight stone, and I stayed this throughout a couple of weeks, before slowly I put on a ound or so each week, Although I felt sick and hated myself, I loved the way I had so much energy all of a sudden, meaning that I was able to excersize withoutcausing myself to bruise! And at nigjht I didn’t end up with bruises anymore, and in the morning I didn’t collapse like I used to! I’ve still lost control of my eating, and I’m still eating more than I should but the thing is, I am so much happier for it!