I am suffering from severe depression

I am suffering from severe depression and have been for quite a while now, and have attempted to end it all a few times. And I just cant cope anymore. The more I stay here and ‘live’ it out, the more dead I feel inside and the more I hate everything. There are a few people that I have managed to survive for; my sister, my two younger brothers who are 3 and a new born, and my best friend. I cant do it for my parents…they dont understand and I dont know what to do, because they always are so so cold etc to me…like they dont care or love me…and I cant do it for myself because I dont like myself… Basically about 2 weeks ago my mum found out about one of the main catalysts of my depression was, and told my dad, but they dont seem to believe what happened and it hurts more, than just dealing with what happened. And the more I hurt, the more determined I am to hide it all from everyone, yet the more I do that the more I hurt…its catch 22…All they seem to do is sweep it under the carpet and say its in the past, there is nothing that can be done. But to me its NOT in the past its a living nightmare, and I am constantly jumpy and scared to the point of having regular panick attacks even though it happened two years ago. Why cant they see that this is one cause?

So really I want to know how can I help my parents see my pain and how can I get the affection I am so longing for, before its too late?

I am just so confused and lost and dont know what I can do or want to do…

Answer #1

I think you should cry in front of them also I think you should act sad all the time and I think they will wonder what’s wrong with you.I feel depress 2 but I’m don’t know how to deal with it!!!

Answer #2

you need pills. That’s whats helping me, though I still feel depressed from time to time, and I still feel suicidal once in awhile, but not as often as I used, to and so intense as I used to. I used to hate myself so bad, and it was like the hugest urge I had was to die. though I knew I couldn’t, because it’s against my religion, though I often thought that it wouldn’t matter.

Answer #3

Hi Lizzy, Not sure if this is useful: http://www.priory.com/dbt.htm but you may find some parts of it may help point you in another direction other than just straight forward counselling.

Please ignore if you don’t feel it is relevant.

:)

Answer #4

Hi lizzy Please dont take this the wrong way.You sound like such a sweet girl.this will help you if you let it.what I think you should do is is get admited.call 911 and say that you want to end it all and cant stand it anymore.they well take you to the hospital which has to hold you for 48 hrs.tell them exaticley how you feel and they will admit you to the mental hospital. you will probley have to stay there from 3-9 months. Good luck Marlena

Answer #5

I have been seeing the doctors and the councellors and I have meds…and my parents know. They know I am depressed, and they know why…but they cant ‘see’…if anyone understands that…

and I am ashamed to say that I have these issues and I like to please everyone around me more than myslef, so I have to hide my feelings…

Answer #6

I’ve been in a dark place like that before but talk with a conceller or a docter because this really does help trust me!

Answer #7

I kinda have the same problem with my parents. I can’t speak for your parents but I know that mine have a hard time seeing me in pain, a lot of their avoidance is because they just can’t deal with not being able to help me. They also probably just dont know how to act around you. Apart from talking to them I’m not sure what you can do. Maybe try some family therapy sessions?

If all fails… sometimes you just have to deal with the fact that your parents will never be the way you want them to be and simply be grateful that you have people who care from you. Sometimes you need to create your own family (if that makes any sense)

Answer #8

hi lizzy, I am so sorry you feel so bad, some people don’t get it, or don’t whant to, it’s not that they don’t care but that they can’t deal with theese issues them selves. I don’t know if you still feel this way, but I have depression also, and sometimes well most times I don’t whant to be hear either, and have tried not to be many times. I feel like I can’t do it anymore also. but there are ways of help, and ways to stay on the right path. talk to your parents talk deeply and open up more than you ever have, let them see what lies within your soul, mayb even write it down. I hope I helped somewhat, and take care, you know where I am if you would like to chat about anything at any time.xxx

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