So..does he love me?? Or am I just something to temporarily take up

Its all right there in black & white…His response to me broke my heart”I have told you I am not in luv w/ u. >>Why would you want to keep sleeping with your ex knowing that he is no longer interested in being in a committed relationship with you? The answer is because in your heart you probably somehow feel that by continuing to have sex that he is going to magically somehow realize what he hasnt realized throughout the entire time you were in a committed relationship, and that he will somehow fall madly in love with you and come running back to you with his heart in his hands vowing his eternal love to you…but that ONLY happens in the movies! He for whatever reason didnt feel obligated to stay committed to you while you were in the relationship so its very unlikely that he is going to all of a sudden feel an overwhelming need to committ to you especially now that the relationnship is over, and he is free from the responsibility of having to act in a manner towards you that would show that he values, loves, appreciates, and respects you. What incentive does he have to do this now when he can get all the perks of being in a relationship without having the restrictions?

He is like an addiction to you. Meaning, “doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting a different result”. Your impulse has NOTHING to do with him as a person, or love. Its about a need in you. You have attached yourself to a feeling that you keep trying to get back. First love is incredibly powerful — so is first pain. My suggestion is that you get help from a qualified relationship therapist. Once you see yourself clearly, you may be able to see your ex clearly too — as just another messed-up human being with no more power over you than a dead light bulb.