How do you react if somebody you know and care of is a pornstar?

Sadness…

Pain…

Indifference…

Hate…

Numbness…

Which is it???

How are you suppose to feel when somebody close to your heart does the most obscene disgusting things imaginable.What is the real price of pornography that men and women have to pay?

All I see when I visit that someone is brand new cars and city rich life…suicide pills…and alcohol to get by and forget the disgusting memories…

my hearts brocken…sometimes I just wanna die…I can’t bear to see even their fellow pornstars can’t look at me in the eye and carry a decent conversation..their mind always wondering..like they suffer from ADHD or something…always wearing shades…who’s judging I’m not…u hate your parents…I wont hate you like them…you can’t see your childrens face…I’ll look at you…you avoid your brother or sister I’ll be there…you feel ashamed of your lover I’m always gonna be proud of you…your friend will leave you and turn you into a joke…I won’t…I’ll give you all those things money can’t buy…but in return let me DIE!