does he really love me? }guys please help{ LONG!

kk so I’ve been dating my boyfriend for7 months I love him tonzz and he says he loves me but I dated a guy a while a ago who did the same thing but turned out he only wanted me to be his lil sex doll I nvr did him I’ve had sex with my current boyfriend but I DO NOT wanna hear your to younge yadda yadda yadda FU if thats what your gonna say click BACk Now anywayz supposedly he told one of his friends he would do anything for me but his friend dosnt like me so I don’t know if he really said it now I know my friend likes me hes happy I said yes but hes always talking about how hot other girls are and I really dont care as long as they dont touch him and he dosnt make out with them or worse idc and when he does that I talk about taylor laughtner (he hates that =D) but I just wanna be sure he loves me to took me a long time to get over my ex because I thought he reall loved me but he didnt he hada new girlfriend in 4 days so I love him but if he dosnt love me I need to detach before I just get broken I cant deal woth that again I have a horrible life (not kidding my mom and dad are divorced I cnt see my 9 yr old bro and my dad has tried to kill me, my mom and my lil bro I’ve been held by gun point by my dad so im not kidding) so when like something bad happens like ex: this has happend my dad hit me and I hit a brick wall and became unconious when I woke up no one was at my house and I was bleeding soi went to my bfs house I got there gave him a hug and became unconious again I kept waking up and passing out again he helped me. I know your like um are you stupid? obviously he loves you but he only acts like that when no ones around my dad cut my leg (threw a knife at me) and I needed help I cnt do stiches (no needles il punch you out ) but his friends were there and he said go to shellies (his neighbors) and he never kisses me or holds my hand hugs me nothing when people are around I dont get it sooo he says he loves me does he and hes just embarrsed of me? help?advice?