I'm 16 and I've been with my boyfriend one and a half years. We haven't done anything sexual but I feel ready too. However when we try and take a tiny baby step forward (like trying to do any foreplay or little things like that) I will be completely fine until I see my parents. For some unknown reason when they come home and I see them I have to run out the run to be sick, I get filled with this massive feeling of guilt. It's controlling my relationship and it's putting a weight inbetween us. He says he fine tovwait but I know he's getting bullied at school for it. It's also hard as all our friends around us are moving forward in their relationships and talking about it and he's stuck waiting for me to get over myself and this strange fits of anxiety. I've even spoken to my mum about it and she is totally fine with us doing anything as she knows I've waited for the right guy and I really love him, but even with her saying she will still love me I can't stop this irrational anxiety. It's even getting to the point where things I used to be ok with and that we had done many times before is giving me this anxiety aswell, it's keeping me up crying and I can't find anyone who's been through this and can give me an idea to why this is happening to me. Any advice would be greatful and any insight into why this is happening so I can try and tackle it would be appreciated.
