What should I do? Were I should go?

Hey I just turn 18 on may 4th.and ever snice I was 12 my mom would beat me with anything she finds,one time when I was 13 my mom hit me in the face with her fist,and a week later she stab me with a fork.I wish my mom love me but she always beat me,when im in school,the teacher ask me what happends,I alway tell her my must had got that from riding my bike.I never know why my mom treat me soo different from my two little brothors.she always be nice to them and tells them how much she loved them.but I never had that.my mom show me hate like saying why god had me,why iam nothing,how she hated me in many ways.my mom never took drugs or nothing its just when she mad she always take it out on me.at 14 I got my eye in a black and bule and my arm broken by my own mother.I had to go to the hospital.I had to lie what happend cause I was scare she was gonna stab or beat me again and in some way I loved and felt like some were in her she loves me.I told my dad but he love her too much to leave her.I know he loved me cause he would had got me thing and clothes,what ever I wanted but when my mom got in the way he couldent have the guts to say stop.when my mom beats me she tell me not to tell or I go to a home were thee be more kids to beat on me.so I never said a word.when I was 15.I started to feel nothing but hate on my mother.but out of all that hate I would had never disrespected my mother cause you cant hit your mother,she the one to give birth to you.I had soo much anger thati started to do graffiti to express my feeling like nice art that I dident knoe I had.when I was 16 going to 17 my mom found out and burn my arm with a hot spoon.that was the biggest pain I ever had in my life.I was crying as I felt my skin burning and my mom just smiling while she look stright in my eyes,telling me do I like it..I always get beatin by my mothor and had no were to go.like my mom always had fun with my brothers but to me she treated me like I was the devil.I just want her to say she loves me and hugs me,but could I get that no I only get I love you after she beat me on a school day so I can be fool and cover her.I dident want that I love you just because you want to save yourself I want an I love you cause you mean it.now im 18 and my mom whats me to live in the streets.she throw away half of my things yesterday when I was in school.what should I do.were should I got with no money.I have nothing.I need someone to help me