What should I do about my mom and I?

Well when I was younger my mom and I never got along. She always drank and took pills and it made her mean. So she was never like a mom to me but she loved my brother. My brother always got her atention. And I really didn’t care. I was a daddy’s girl. But like a year ago I got really really sick and was in the hospital for a week and ever since I got sick my mom was like a really mom. For once I felt she loved me. She was nice to me we hung out. She was like my best friend. I love the feeling of having a mom. Who really loves you… But when she gets mad at me, or some times she takes are anger out by yelling at me. When she does that it kills . I feel like dying. I start to cry a lot. And I’m a strong person but when it comes to my mom I start to break down .

I think I’m afried that she wouldn’t love me any more or she’ll stop like being my mom and it kills me so much to say this but its true.

I get depressed easy if my mom stops talking to me. I don’t know what to do I feel she dosent care.

Like somtimes when she’d mad I’ll cry and walk passed her and she wont do or say anything.

I don’t no what to do. How can I stop crying over the fact I think my mom will go back to not being like a mom/friend figure. Any other advice would help Thankyou