What does he mean? Please help I begg you!?

Me and my crush used to talk all summer and then we decided to tell each other we liked each other. He then told me that it didn’t feel right so we just stopped talking. Later he dates these other girls. And then he texted me all this when he was currently dating someone else:

Please read it all It took me all this time to write it and I need an answer please :(

Him <3: Remember In the summer we stayed up everyday through the night? Me:Haha I know that was Insane! Him <3: Lol I know I think we texted til 9 o clock that night after the morning! Me : That’s Crazy! Him <3 Good times..and then we just stopped Me: I wish it didn’t Him <3: Well I didn’t mean for it to. Me: Well It’s okay you know.. Him <3: Nahh It’s not okay because I miss it you know. Me: yeahh I know Him<3: But I mean its been akward since what happened…I don’t know its just different. Me: Yeah I know what you mean.. Him<3: Yeah..ugh..im an asshole :( Me: No you’re not! Him<3: Yeahhh I am…You didn’t deserve to be put through that. Me: Oh well I’m Okay now… Him<3: Yeah but its just that I’m not a person who’s ever done that… Me: And your not the only one who has done that to me :| Him<3: Ahh see exactly and man I don’t know I didn’t mean to. To you I might be just like the rest but I’m not Me: Well I’m fine now so it’s ok honestly Him<3: I don’t know there’s no point in telling you this because you probably dont even care about me. I just made a mistake you know.. But I don’t blame you; I’m just gonna go because it’s hard talking about this. Me: It’s not that I don’t care about you..It’s just that I know If we weren’t meant to be than I don’t gotta be upset because I know theres others out there. Him<3: I’m just sorry…because I knew you were gonna be like this towards me and I did wanna be with you but I didn’t feel it then…But I got it off my chest… Me: Well all I ever wanted waas to be with you but you know what it really hurt me when you started dating others right after you rejected me.. Him<3: I know man but ugh I went through so much to get over my first girlfriend and then you came but I didn’t realize that you made me happy. and the other ones were just there and I was trying to save my own self from going back to the past..

Me: Just so you know I would never try to hurt you at all..But I mean your dating someone right now so I dont think it matters now Him<3: Yeah I know but agh you don’t get it… It’s just that..never mind…Bye

What does he mean? Please tell me I’m so freaked out now! I’m so dumb I don’t know what this mean Please someone ! this could save us from never talking about us again! PLEASSSEEE :((