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If you have answered or read any of my other questions please forget about them for now I really need help.please it will be very much appreciated !!

I'm 16, for the past 5 years everything has gone wrong (( I cant go in to to much detail )) but my mum and dad split when I was 11, he got a girlfriend 30 years younger then himself (( this girl is younger than my brother who is 22 !! )) she is 21 ... My brother got arrested for something he didn't do. But that's kind of sorted now. I keep getting really ill, my family are always arguing and I get the blame for everything all of my mates keeps saying I'm probs just thinking there having a go at me when there not ... But they are !! Everything seems to be my fault ! I know I don't help around the house atm but that's because I'm doing my gcses I need to revise and stuff !! ... I miss my ex boyfriend hes the only person who understood me and kept a smile on my face now I always seem to be moody. Hes got another girlfriend and its braking my heart. I've been put on sleeping tablets because I cant sleep as I always have things going on in my head ! ... I just want to get away from it all !! .. I've tried counseling (( I cant spell sorry !! )) but it didn't help me because I can talk about things but ii hold on to my past I cannot let it go!!! I believe that is my problem because I hold on to everything that has happened with my family and my ex. also my dad took hes new girlfriend on holiday to barbados and when my mum and dad were together we went there as a family it hurt me deeply that he took her there we only went on holiday two times with my dad because he was always working. But I went every year with the rest of my family so it means a lot to me!! My nan had to go to the hospital to get 2 lumps removed (( if you can catch on to what im saying )) we haven't got the results back of what they were. Im so down, I miss my ex soo much !! ... Sometimes I miss my dad but he hurt me loads !! ... My mum s ill !! Brothers just a d ** k all the time :( ... And my sister well shes ill as well but they all blame everything on me because I just take it. All my family tells me things not to tell the rest of the family I have to keep everybody's secrets as well as all this going on !! I dont know what to do I cant stop crying im ill atm with a chest infection so im falling behind on school ... Is this all because I cant let go of the past and people hurting me ?!?!?! If so how do I let my ex go and let everything that my dad and brother did gooo ?! im sorry this was soo long I just need help thanks for reading ! X