True Feelings?

To put it simply, I have been a bit confused on my sexuality. My whole life, I have been debating wether I am a Lesbian or BI, and if I am a Lesbian is it because of my horrible parental upbringing I have witnessed. I am twenty years old, in college now.

Anyways. I am with this guy, not ‘offical’. When we first met, instant chemistry. The hug, it was awesome. To be honest, for as long as I can remeber, I have never been the type to like someone very easily, actuelly at all. I am in the same old rut again…

For the first week I knew him, I coulden’t get enough of thinking about him, txting him, and all of that. Things were good. I do not know when it died really, but, we have still been very close (still not official yet).

The point of the matter is…I am confused wether I like him or not!

As always, for me, it is ‘sometimes I don’t, others I do’. Some days I feel he is a friend, others I get excited (in more ways then one) when I am with him, and I get all happy inside. It is a on and off feeling, is the best way to describe it. The feelings I had when I first met him aren’t as strong, since I think it was so new at the time, but those come and go, back and forth. Today, I didn’t feel anything when I thought of him, however, tomorrow I could when I see him…however when I think of him with other women, I get jealous.

I am debating if we should be a couple. I have been honest about it all to him, and he understands, and feels the same, but his feeling are more steady. Both of us are perfect for each other, and he says he can wait till I make up my mind or w/e, since he is cool with waiting on me, since he cares. We have just known each other for two months I believe.

I been holding off, since my uncertainty, but I don’t want anyone to take him from me either! I been thinking on just, being his girlfriend, and keeping him up to date on how I feel or if things change.

— What do you think on my feelings?

— Should we go ahead and be a couple, and just have me stop worrying since we are still new?