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Im Going to try and make as much sense as I can.. just over a year ago. I used to talk to my mates from school on msn and he used to leave his msn on at night his name is jack) and his brother used to go on his lappy at night.. and I used to always be like WAKE UP JACK! And his brother used to talk to me. and I said to him once add me I like talking to you he was all like over 16’s only so I was like o:( okay. please add me ect.. and a few days later he added me.. and we used to talk all the time. it was like I’ve known him all my life.. he used to made me laugh and we used to always do cam 2 cam.. and than I guess my feeling for him grew and grew. I used to always tell him how I felt. but he used to always be like blah. ill dateyou when your 16 ect ect.. and he used to always care for me.. at the time I didnt realise I thought he was just being mean.. he said once if I dont stop than I think its best I leave you alone.. I was like no dont. he knew I really loved him.. and all that… and I was like where do you work ill come see and and all that he wouldnt tell me so I found out.. and used to hang out where he works and than is tarted bunking and all that… I was quite suprised that he only worked 5mins away from my school.. and I guess thats where he lost intrestead in me.. but.. I think he wont admit his feelings for me because I am mates with his brother and his neice.. well anyways… about 4months dont the line after fzncing him I got with his next door neibour..and I had moved away 2hours away. and when he found out. he went on his neices MSN And was like EWWW your going out with bucky teeth ect and than was like Charlie APPROVES And than I found out it was really charlie and we spoke about it and he was like I dont care I approve on it and all thst. and than when I fell out with the next door neibour I told charlie that I still love him and all that witch I did a the time.. than going into another 3 months after the 4months I fell in love with some dude over the net I never spoke to charlie because he was never online anymore.. and im to shy to talk to charlie irl.. but it was like everytime I was in amiddl eof an arguement or somthing or had fallen out with someone he was there.. even tho he hadnt been on for months he would just sign on when I needed someone to talk to.. it was really weird. yea so I fell in love with this guy on the net we dated over 5months and met irl and all that we broke up like 5weeks ago and we’ve just got back together this week to try and start agen and this week I’ve came back down to my home town where I used to live. and I saw charlie. and it gave me that bare feeling spark that I used to have. it felt like all my feelings for charlie I had pushed away to the side tried to blank them out.. when charlie walked thru his door into the living room I was in there with everyone else and he lifted one of his eyebrows up at me and looked at me in the corner of his eye (IHvae no idea what that was suposed to mean) and than he sat dwn on the arm of the chair with his back to me because he had to ring the take away people for dinner. and than he moved on the other arm chair so he was facing me and than he moved and squaged his mum I was like do I smell or sumthing he was like yes you do.. aand than the next day I went down by his new job andd when he was closing up I couldnt help me self. I just squeezed his man boobehs. and stuck my tongue out he standed there like :o o.o ;l .. I dont eeven no if he really likes me or if he to shy to admit hes got feelings with me because im mates with his neice and brother or isit the 6 years ages gap.. or isit he wants 2 wait till im 16. I dont even talk to charlie anymore he wont even give me his addy anymore becus my msn got hacked. and now I cant talk to him. he like noo what I really want to know is how can I find out if he likes me? maybe I should ask him for a word when im next down and try and get talking to him irl or what im very shy in real life so I dont know why I touched his man boobeh because that is jsut not like me. I jsut lost it.. so please can someone help