I love him so

I really liked this senior in school, and added him online, told him I liked him. We became friends, started talking online everyday and he started liking me after seeing me around in school. We started dating and for about a month and a half, it was the best thing ever, we kissed and all, he was the first guy I kissed and I was the first girl he kissed and we were truly lost in each other. We used to hang out in school, and sometimes my teachers saw us together, so they kind of got what is happening. I am a really good student so they got pissed 'because in India, going out is a big deal and not looked upon favourably by the elders. I made him promise that we won't meet in school 'because I was going to get into trouble and he promised, then broke his promise loads of times by turning up to meet me. I got into major trouble, my teachers gave me a direct warning, and I dumped him, for three hours. We got back after sentimental rubbish, but on several occasions like this, I dumped him, each time for an hour or so, or max. a day. Each time he begged me to take him back, perfect boyfriend that he was, said he missed me, and we always got back together, no matter what, because we really did love each other...Then, 5 months or so into our relationship, he started sounding frustrated and angry and started snapping at me, banging down the phone, yelling...stuff which he'd never done before, and which I generally had been known to do. This made me insecure and scared and I told him h'es changed. He said yes, and that he wants a break. I said that's an insult to our realtionship, and it can only be a breakup...because I didnt think he'd do that. But he said okay, and we broke up. This was followed by a month that was one of the worst in my life because I was so hurt and confused and upset that when I always come back to him, and he wants me back saying we'll work it out, and it does work, and it's meant to be...he just disregards everything we stood for. He used to say he loves me, and wants to be with me, but can't be with me...and I shouldn't wait. Needless to say, I chased him for a month trying to understand what went wrong, because we were perfect..together. And then, realising that he's being a hypocrite, and I should give up...I did...and he came back. We goth back together, and I was expecting him to pay a lot of attention to me because I was naturally insecure and hurt after that month, and I need him to make me feel fine again..with him. I went abroad, he was away...when we started talking normally, my cell got confiscated...so I coudnt talk all that much to him...and since he'd passed out, he got through a university in a different state..and said we'll work it out...long distance works...he loves me...I should trust him...we'll be together forever...he'll always want to be with me, no matter what...that he'd never repeat the mistake he made in that one month. After that, I kinda felt he doesn't love me anymore...because it still seemed like I was doing all the chasing even after being the injured party...sometimes like I'm tallking to a stranger instead of one my best friend cum boyfriend who I love deeply. I kept nagging him, I guess, saying you don't love me...until a point where he said I love you, but if you don't get it, I won't prove it to you...and we broke up. Now h'es leaving in a week, says we can never be together again, he doesn't love me anymore, we should be friends, he'll never date agin 'because relationships are crap..and I'll find someone better. But this is the guy I've been with for 8 months...I see him even when he's not there, dream of his touch at night, can't understand how he can hurt me so much, want him back, am not sure whether to be friends or not...because of'course I'll keep hoping...and wanting him back. He sounds indifferent, which is more scary than hatred. I was gearing myself for a long distance relationsip, but he let go. I've tried to get over him before...but it doesn't work. Should I have faith and wait, because love comes to those who believe it..and because he said he'll always come back to me? I cannot give up, please do not advice that...tell me how to get what I want...and what I need...and what I cannot let go.