How can I make this year better?

ok soo this is going to b very long…ook so my friend sara asked me to the mall and I said sure and stuff so we were about to go the next day…but she said she didnt want me 2 go anymore so I got mad at her for a while…but she invited my other friend kirsten and so kirsten txts me and braggs about how sara wanted her to go and not me…so I was like wtf im sick of it so I was mad at her and not talking to her anymore 4 a while and then I got over it and tried to talk to her but she was all like no im mad at you so I was like ok and started to talk 2 my friend mackenzie and ignor kirsten and I started talking to sara again and then kirsten thought it would b ok to turn 1 of my best guy friend against me…then soon after that mackenzie so at this piont I have mackenzie and cullen (best guy friend) and kirsten mad at me…so now its summer and I said I was sorry to mackenzie she said it was ok but that we are not friends I didnt rilly care..but then kirsten said I want you 2 say your sorry to me…the thing is I did but I 4got about all summer but 2day I get a txt from kirsten saying she wants me 2 say sorry 2 her..I was wtf so I did and I said but you cant b mean im sick of it and she said its ok that you said sorry but im stilll gonna mean to u…and imm like this is soo much drama I cant handle and im sick of it and her and every1 and when this all started I was wicked depressed and almost killed my self and now im all depressed again it just hurts a whole lot…I have had suicidal thoughts today 2…and I don’t know what 2 do I know this yr school is going 2 b hell!! >={