i am not cheating on my boyfriend

that also does not help, cos my bfriend will find other reasons why he believes i am cheating. even getting text messages from clients, i have to show him. his accusing went so far that he pushed me on the bed so that i broke my collar bone, next day i was sleeping al day but he accuse me of texting men, i mean come on, i am in so much pain, why would i feel like flirting. tomorrow he will accuse me for chating with men on the internet, meantime i am typing this and also crying by my mom on skype. i left everything i had and my country to go with him to uk. now im here, have no friends and may also not have friends. its been 5 days since i broke my collar bone and with tonights fights and him accusing me he even tried to trough the bed over on which i am lying with a broken collar bone. what is next? that he kills me so i will not cheat on him? i tried to leave him a few times but he did drastic things to win me back everytime, even promised to go for counseling. its all to nothing. i love him but i fear him. he has harmed me both emotional and fisical. i am running out of hope and idees to run away. everybody that tried to help me in the past is turning their backs on me as i keep going back to him. in some sick way i dont want to leave him, i feel he is the mister right. cos on the goodtimes i feel he is the best i ever had. and im not a kid, im 30.