Im not ready to be a parent at all

OK. I’ve been dating this girl for about a year now and we did good and all, were olny 15 Atm and we had sex a couple times protected and a couple not protected, I thought if I stoped before I cumed the chances of getting preg would be lower, way lower. And now she’s preg. she told her mom and her mom know’s now and her whole family does and now I dont like going over to her house cause I feel weird.

Im not ready to be a parent at all and,

At school I’ve been having problems, best friend tried to kill me now he wants to hand out all the time and I dont trust him at all, school is mad at me for that somereason and they keep saying im whipped because I like to be loyal to my girlfriend and I just feel like giving up lately.

My brother died, my other brother moved out, mom is smoking and drinking herself to death at 50. I have a very nice house and everything I ever wanted but im still not happy, I don’t know why but I don’t know what to do or say and I just really wanted be open about it, my girlfriend might get a abortion and I told her if she does I might break up with her.

Neither of us are ready for a baby and would olny make things worse for us, I know we should have used protection but I learned my lesson =(

If I had a kid I couldent handle it, ild give up.

any thoughts? thanks.