Father - Daughter

I am a twenty-four year old woman and have recently found my father after twenty-three years. He left me for another woman -

All my damn life I had too live with this rejection, I have never been able too have a relationship because my perception about men was shattered due to my father. I did not blame him for everything, but I just wish he made more effort with me. I flew to where he lives and met him for nine days - When I first saw him I forced myself too cry. Maybe because I had no more tears left. I asked him why he left and he said that he left my mother and not me - Bullshit I thought, because he neveer made any effort in contacting me all these years.

After visiting him he has limited contact with me,a and it makes me feel like their is something wronng with me. He tells mehe loves me, but they are empty words because he does not show it - I am the only one making that effort with him, he never messages me unless I message him asking how he is. I was the one who contacted him after realizing he was never going to do it himself. I am worn out, because I did all I could do - I find myself being really depressed - I voiced all my thoughts too my dad during the seven months of knowing him - He is just no emotionally available for me - I mean how hard is it just to text or e-mail me - It hurts, so before I feel rejected again I told him that It hurts me to keep contact with him - I told him that I was going to back off before he did as I could see that he was acting distant from me - I am lost and it has been a week since I e-mailed him that. What do I do? I am at a road block at the moment